Lauren Elise Egavian

I arrived to NYC on Thursday, January 6th listening to Billy Joel’s New York State of Mind playing in my Mom’s 5 series. It was planned. I made her a mixed cd which also included Alicia Keys, Empire State of Mind. Classic. I was so excited, driving along the Hudson. I arrived at my cousin’s brownstone in the West Village. He graciously offered a one bedroom apartment on the forth floor for me to stay in while I get myself acclimated and score a job(s).

While unpacking, it hit me. I’ve left everything I’ve ever known. Wow. Twenty six years of my existence. To embark on this new adventure. The fear of the unknown sinks in. That voice kicks in. What am I going to do for work? Where am I going to live? Who am I going to live with? Is this the right choice? Did I make the right decision? Is this the answer? Will I ever stop searching? Do I think too much?  I loose it. Cried. For an hour. All the emotions bubbled up to the surface and exploded! It felt good to let it out. But geez. Intense. I know we don’t need to have all the answers right now. I know this move is going to challenge me in ways I never fathomed. I’m ready. I have to be ready. To embrace anything and everything that comes up. This is life. Once you stop really living, you die…